Heaven Earth or Hell?

Where am I living now? One moment I feel like I am in heaven, one moment on Earth and the next moment in Hell.

Life have been fucking hectic. Made a new bro and he is one person who I can really put my trust in. Got screwed up on the ISCG website. Last minute msged in sick at 3.30am and I had to do all the linking or else die. Been lacking of sleep for the past few days. Still cant get my mind off her. But it seems like I am drifting further and further away from her........ Not talking and chatting like before. Not sharing gossips and secrets like before. Not walking along side by side like before. The feeling sure sucks but this is reality. She has a boyfriend. Maybe I should have given up hope long ago. My temper is getting worst. I am losing weight. Not due to dieting but stress. Caffeine consumption is getting out of hand. Coughing and cacking away like nobody business. Saw another girl that I like but not really know her. Maybe because I am shy, or afraid that my looks will scare her. I am confused. I feel like I am drifting slowly away from this world. Into Heaven or Hell........I do not know. But I dont really give a damn about it. I just hope each day passes along like the way it is suppose to be and let my ownself control myself until the day I die........







Nick 3:16™ feels that life is meaningless........I dunno how to express out what I want to express out........and that really sucks........