Because I got high.

If you can't drink, please don't force youself to drink.

Been to Dion's birthday party. Everything was going fine until his darned army friends force him to drink endless cups of alcohol. In the end, he ended up crying and talking non-stop on the bed.

Been to Stephanie's birthday party at Dbl O. Once again, Alfon could'nt controlled himself in drinking non-stop. He ended up punching some unknown fucker in the head for around 5-6 times. Luckily, Dewei and I restrained both of them and prevented a fight. The end consequences, the guy asked me to pay for Alfon's drink as he had been drinking with them and he took a few cigarettes from our table. Not only that, a few more of my friends were drunk so badly that they started puking all over the floor just outside Dbl O. Sorry for the cleaner who had to clear up that following day.

After I went home that night, I could'nt sleep... Many thoughts ran through my head. I was thinking of almost everything. I am always the one who is not drunk and wasted. I am always the one taking care of those who are wasted. What if the situation is reversed, will they do the same to me? I can't picture myself doing all those actions that my friends did when they were drunk and wasted. What will I do when i am drunk? Call out the name of the girl I truly love repeatedly? Curse and swear at those who dare to fuck around with me? Or will I just sit there and be emo? This are questions I can't answer... because in order to be able to answer to all that questions, you have to make me drunk =).







I still can't bring out the courage in me to say I love you. I still can't bring out the courage to tell my friends that I really like her. I still can't accept the fact that you have a boyfriend. I still can't accept the fact that we are not together. God, please give me the courage to tell her that I really do love her. Bring out the Angels in me and rid me of the Demons. Amen.