The Difference Between Dream And Reality.

In my dream, I dream I have lots and lots of money to do what ever I want. In reality, I can only work hard for my money. In my dream, I can dream that I am fit and strong. In reality, I am only an average joe. In my dream, I can dream that I am handsome and charming. In reality, I am only an average joe. In my dream, I can dream that I can fly. In reality, I am a human who is not able to fly. In my dream, I dream that I have superpowers which are beyond limits. In reality, I am only a human. In my dream, I dream that I am with YOU, such bliss. In reality, I can only wait and wait and wait and wait to be with YOU.








I have a wish. And that wish is to be with YOU. I want to care and love YOU. I want to be YOUR one and only. I love YOU. But do YOU love me? Only God knows the answer.

Weird Experience.

Today while I was in the bus, on my way home, there was this attractive gal, sat beside me because the bus is full. I was half asleep and half listening to my i-pod when suddenly, that gal rested her head on my shoulder. I turned around and woke her up. She gave me a smile and sat up straight again. A few minutes later, she lay her head on my shoulder again. Again I woke her up and she gave me a smile and sat up straight again. After a few times of repeating the same thing, I was too lazy to keep telling her off so I close my eyes and fell asleep. The next moment I knew, our heads were touching against each other. I am like what the F*ck........I immediately sat up straight and she woke up and sat up straight too. She turn around and smile and said sorry to me. I smiled back and look out of the window. A few minutes later, her head rested gently on my shoulder again. I turned around and saw a smile on her face while she is sleeping. After a few more minutes, I woke her up and say I am alighting at this stop. She smiled at me and say thanks.



While I was walking home, a lot of thoughts are running through my head. It's been a long time since I let someone lie on my shoulder. But I do not want to let a stranger lie on my shoulder. If anyone were to lie on my shoulder to rest or to cry, it will only be YOU!!


Caffeine Originated Boy C.O.B =)

You You...Yes You.

All I want to see is YOU!!
Yes YOU!!
No one else but YOU!!
Only YOU.
Dreaming of YOU!!
Thinking of YOU!!
Waiting for YOU!!
Bleah........
Zzzzzzzzzz........
Kiss Goodbye........

2 Cups Of Coffee And A Can Of Coke.

Morning, before the start of everything, a cup of coffee or coke usually helps me to stay awake. But now, it is totally useless. Am I really a caffeine addict now? The 3 Cs in my life may have an addition to it soon. Can I survive this hectic days? Even though it sounds tough, I will endure through each day. Shall take things slowly one step at a time.

Caffeination am I.

Dreaming and thinking of you everyday, every hour, every second........ Life is'nt a bed of roses........It's harsh, like a bed of cactuses........

I Had A Bad Day.

It's not the 1st time that you throw your F**king tantrum at mom and me. It's not the 1st time that you always think that you are right and we are wrong. It's not the 1st time that you scold us for no reason........

I did not knew that you did not knew that Harris was with me. You did not even asked Harris father whether he is with me. You did not even ask mom whether Harris is with me. How were we suppose to know that you send Harris father back home 1st before coming to fetch me? And will it hurt to send Harris home? If you are pissed off for fetching Harris home, when dont you tell us earlier. We could have not went up your car and took a cab home instead. Why wait till Harris reached home then you start throwing your F**king tantrum at us. Do you know that it hurts everytime you scold us. Each word that you used are words that can hurt a person's heart. Have you ever thought of forgive and forget? Hell no. You always think you are right and we are wrong. You rather retain your pride then forgive us. I don't mind you not fetching me home and tapowing food for me anymore, if thats what you want. But why must you scold mom? Thats the most absurb thing ever. She did not did anything wrong. Why must you scold her. And that venomous look in your eyes when we were in the lift, it seems to me that you were about to hit me. Please change your attitude. Don't make me lose confidence in the man who raise me up. While I am typing all this, it really hurts me. I actually cried when I was in my room. I could'nt help it. I have not cried for a long time. It really hurts. I hope you will change, really hope so. That's because........you are my Dad. (Happy Birthday Dad) Hope everything will be ok by tomorrow =).



And I will really want to thank you, Carol, for listening to my troubles and
encouraging me to cheer up. It really helps when you cry it all out. It's hard to bottle things up like you said. Once again, thank you =).

Back...I think.

Its been busy and busy and busy at almost everyday. Someone please help me. I feel so isolated. Desperate need for money. My pay is still unheard of. Feeling frustrated. Excessive intake of caffeine. Perks me up. Coke and Coffee is a daily need now.Caffeinated.
So many things to handle. So little time. Only moment of happiness. Is SLEEP and to see you. =). This is life? Ha. Believe in Afterlife people. =).



I need help........ Besides God, the only person who can help myself........is myself........Feel like I am a puppet being controlled........Daily schedule worked out so perfectly that its seems that I am programmed........I am a human........not an android........what the heck........who cares........